Ayah and I

Ayah will be admitted to IJN this Sunday for angiogram and angioplasty.

Ayah texted me about it just a day after I had dinner with my sister when she told me Ayah had asked her few times how busy I've been these few weeks.

It was so touching, I can't stop blaming myself for not completing my experiments earlier so that I can spend at least once a month having quality time with him.

I called him yesterday and we talked about the procedures, Ayah said the doctor told him the risk was only 1% and told me not to worry. 1 is still a number ok.

But I don't worry much about the angio-thing.

What matters to me most is that I just couldn't be there for Ayah,

and yeah, I just realized it has been 1 month 1 week and 3 days since our last meeting.

AND I MISS HOME DAMN MUCH!!!!

.... and I miss everyone. EVERYONE!!!!

P/S: My prayers will always be with you, Ayah",

Mystery remains...

I'm not sure who wrote this. Might be me, might be not. I found this in a file name 'Bizarre' while browsing the mixed up folders :P But no matter who wrote the lines, they are simply nice and *sweet*. For me, at least.

When you looked into my eyes
I could say nothing
Coz it seems perfect
You got thru my soul

When you looked into my eyes
I felt warmth
The brightness of your eyes
Shines into my soul

When you looked into my eyes
It goes thru, right to the heart
And the feelings were great
As great as it used to be

When you looked into my eyes
I knew you saw hope
For every reason I have
I have to keep it low

Because when u looked into my eyes
You never knew what was going on in here
A mixed feeling, a kept top secret
That no one would ready to reveal

It was you
That kept me going
That gave me strength
That secretly hoped for the best in me

It was your words
That keeps me moving
That holds my faith
That stops me from any single chance of giving up

And if you’re in the One in The Million
I dun mind texting thousands votes
Because you’re something more.

^_^

Merepek Eps. Berape?

I miss every-ONE.

I miss every-THING.

Owh Mr. Happiness, I'm too stressed out with Mr. Stress! HELP!

P/S 1: I lost my watch, does that mean I lost my time too? Sort of. Too sad for the lost, coz it was a present from mom. Guess I have to wait till next March to ask for a new one (if only there is one kindhearted human being willingly to buy me one T__T)

P/S 2: I was too stressed out the other day, that somehow my tears shaded my eyes, while I was at the laminar flow, with stacks of undone plates. T____T

P/S 3: This weekend I'm going to Sepang, MotoGP. Hope I could enjoy myself eventhough I don't enjoy the bikes that much. La la la~ :P

P/S 4: I was not so happy to hear Kimi will not race for Ferrari next season. But I do believe Ferrari will shine next year ", and poor Kimi for the incident at Interlagos. And no matter who races for Ferrari next season, I'm looking forward to be in Sepang around March or April 2010! Simpan duit! :P

Penat lelah bukan asma~

Semester 3 Master adalah sangat menderaskan adrenalin saya. Sekian.

P/S: Rindu lah!

The Best Raya Ever Part 1

It was the best raya ever.

A week full of sweet moments with sweet sweet people.

Sweet thoughts, sweet memories, everything lah sweet.

I wish I could make it longer, long enough for me to spend with each of my sweet sweet people.

But it always has to end early. And that would be the only reason for me, to look forward and wish for our next meeting ",

I miss them already. So badly :(

God Heard Me

God heard me",

As I've been mentally prepared to celebrate 1st Hari Raya in Kuala Lumpur, few days ago mom told me we will be celebrating it in dad's kampung. No words could describe how I felt at that particular moment. *speechless*

Hari Raya in Tampin and places nearby. YES!!

Eventhough I seemed to love being in Kuala Lumpur so much, deep inside Hari Raya for me is being with big..big..big families. Owh, and also rendang ayam kampung that has always been my favourite! ",

And each time we went back to kampung, I won't miss to visit my late grandpa's grave. Eventhough I have only spent 4 years of my life with him, he gave me such inspirations", somehow I felt I am strongly connected to him, might be of the genes from him were expressed most in me", *winkwink*

Owh. The only thing that cause me a li'l bit uneasy being in kampung is the Maxis bad coverage. HAHA. Coz once I got back the signals, my inbox would be very busy indeed with raya sms. Come on, I prefer the traditional way guyz. HAHA. But this year I received none from the snail mail. So I guess there'd be a lot more in my phone inbox this Hari Raya ",

Talking about Hari Raya wishes. This was what I quoted on my Facebook status earlier.

A wish never been told. We hoped it could be delivered but who are we to be so sure, that it would be as what we expect it to be? and it might be.. A wish never been told. (Nur Masirah, 2009)

So it's not the Hari Raya wish that matters most to me. It's the forgiveness that I hoped for. Eventhough I wanted it so badly, how can I be so sure I have been forgiven or will be. And yeah, for some reasons, I do have wishes never been told.. for the time being. And I hope someday, I wish God heard me again",

And for YOU,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir Batin

^_^

The Little Me~

Something I'd like to share.

Small things for me but seems so important to my mother.

And that's why she prepared this for me, years ahead. A frame for my Master's convocation picture.

And whenever I came back home and saw the picture, I'd surely smile at least, for the girl in the picture looked so innocent, and not-so-good with camera, but yeah, it's still me. 17 years ago. *winkwink*