A song. The song.

I was browsing through this guy's youtube videos, when I realized I have hit the replay button like nearly five times now. His voice is undeniably amazing, but there's something more about this song that made me feel connected. Yeah, typical me. And yeah, this song reminds me of 'The Favourite Person'. Again . *sigh*

I don't wanna tell you that, sometimes I think of you.. and smile ;)
- I'm Falling For You by Chester See.

Dear Favourite Person ;)

Dear favourite person ;)

Without you noticing..
Your presence has been inspiring.

Without you knowing..
Your smile has kept me moving.

You might not notice, you might not know,
To myself I've promised, I'll try to keep things low.

It's not time to tell the world,
Not time to show them all.
How you captured my sight,
How you did it right.

But I couldn't stop myself from expressing
wouldn't dare to hide this feeling
shouldn't stop myself from believing
That one fine day, the world will know everything ;)

As for now my dear,
I really miss how we were.
How you became my favourite,remember?
The moments we always find each other :D

No matter what had changed your mind,
No matter what had made you realized,
No matter what had distant us,
I believe, behind it all there's a reason.

One fine day dear favourite person,
I hope you'll tell me bout it,
About everything I've been missing bout you,
All these while, all these while.

Dear favourite person,
I do like you a lot ;)
And you should feel it by heart...
That You're the only favourite person I have in mind. In the heart. And in Life ;)

Till we meet again. XOXO :)

How Odd is Odd?

How odd is odd?

Last night I fell asleep unprepared, didn’t brush my teeth, and didn’t wash my face, but remained asleep for like 6 hours.

Odd.

I woke up at 6.45 a.m. for my Subuh prayer.

Not that odd. :P

After prayer, I took out a plastic bag from the drawer. Inside it was an Al-Quran, a gift from a friend, bought from Makkah… have not touched it since I moved back home. Last I opened it was during Ramadhan last year. Owh God, it’s been quite some time yeah? Screw me.

And I began to recite a page (at least).

Definitely odd.

As usual, I got back on my comfy bed, and fell asleep again. When I woke up, I remembered, I had this one flash of image, and not sure if the image was my imagination or a dream. Seriously, I couldn’t distinguish between the two.

Odd.

More odd? The image.

It was a visual of me, on my wedding day, posing for our official photographer. My ‘husband’ was standing behind me, his hands were around my waist, we were wearing some light colour traditional Malay wedding costumes, and yeah, I was looking at his face, and we were smiling to each other. Looking at his face within few cm distance, how can I not notice exactly who he is? You tell me.

I’m not telling who he is. No no no. Not telling.

It’s very odd indeed. Whatever happened this morning was very odd to me. Was it a dream? Or some sign? No, I didn't do any Istikharah lately. Except, I always pray that my other half would be safe and succeed in everything he is pursuing, so that when we finally found each other later, we’re prepared :P

So between a sign, or just a dream, I would rather take it as a dream. It has been said that our subconscious mind is the source of our dreams, so it might be that the person occurring in my dream is just a coincidence, as he is someone I know, and I meet regularly. Hah hah hah! 

Not telling not telling not telling, and don’t ask. NOT TELLING! :D

Perhaps? ;)

I'm going far,

Stay where you are.

But if you insist,

I can't resist.

Follow me fly,

Up high in the sky.

This is what I fear the most. The feeling of leaving everything behind, while making my dreams come true.

I am now officially a Master's holder. It means I must now, seriously have to put all my efforts, in order to achieve my goals, to study overseas, and to get a PhD before 30. Crazy? Nah. Other people can do it, why can't I? So I am currently browsing through University courses in Britain Top Universities. Don't ask me why UK, it's been a dream. Been in London once, at the age of 6, and yes, since then, I always look forward to come back to London, again ;)

As much as I'm excited about the whole thing, there's this feeling inside that I couldn't get rid off. Yeah, it's killing me. Killing me badly.

The moment I waived goodbye to my loved ones, would be the hardest moment I expected. I would be missing their smiles, their giggles, their laughters, their jokes, their tears, their happiness, and the warmth of their love. Gosh. Even imagining this is hard, being at the actual moment might be deadly.

And what if ... what if..  I met You already?

Would You beg me not to go?

Or would You fake your smile and cry inside?

Or would You promise me it'll be fine?

Or would You not turn up on the very last day on the very last goodbye?

If only You knew, how hard it is for me to hold this feeling, even before I met You.

As much as I hope I wouldn't meet You anytime sooner, I couldn't deny the fact that love is so mysterious, it can come and touches my heart anytime, in anyway, at any place, with anyone...

For I can only pray, and hope... for the best. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. I believe. I hope You too ;)

Sometimes I wonder, this journey, would it take me to where You are, or farther from You? 

No one has the answer. If farther will make me stronger, I think I can survive a year or two. Perhaps? :P

Time to sleep. And dream of London. with You ;) Good night world :)

Dear You :)

A Prince Charming, sometimes I want.

A handsome rich guy, sometimes I want. 

A Superhero, sometimes I want.

A guardian angel, sometimes I want. 

but no matter what I'm searching for,

most of the times, I just need You ;)

Dear Mr. Other Half,

wherever you are,

whatever you're doing,

please be safe,

please take care.

Can't wait to see You.

as much as to know You.

and as much as to say... 'I do' ;)

and If you're already here to stay,

do let me know, for I'll just say,

all along I believed I would find You

Time has brought your Heart to Me

I have loved You for a thousand years

I'd love You for a thousand more ^_^

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

P/S: Happy 2012 all! The best is yet to come, in Life, and in Love, perhaps? :P

The Jengers :)

They called themselves The Jengers.

My childhood friends, my hometown sweethearts.

They made me happy, when skies are grey. 

They welcomed me in any way. 

And yes, they are the reason, I smiled my days ;)

And I thank You God, for this gift of Life.

Psstt... Hey Jengers, You rock my world! ;)

The Roller Coaster Year - 2011

Hey all! It's been a while I know. Being pretty occupied with Twitter, that distracted me to write longer than 140 characters. HEHE :P

So today I promised myself to at least, have one last post for 2011. A lot of things I'd like to share here, but it's kinda confusing where to start.

2011 has been a roller coaster year for me. Ups and downs. Tasted the air on the top, and then being smashed hard to the ground. Happiness, love, sadness, sorrow, loneliness, joy and cheers, all made up my 2011.

After the long years of hardship and hardworks, tears and joy, I finally finished my Master of Science in Microbiology, Senate approval in November 2011. Alhamdulillah, it was indeed, another achievement of Life ;)

I may not have said this directly, but I dedicated my Master's degree to everyone that has been supporting me all these while. Not to forget those who had been my inspirations, from day 1 I knew the meaning of failure and hardships. 

Master's degree is not something that I can be proud of till the end of Life, it is just a platform of ideas, in order for me to further my journey of knowledge ;) Another goal has been achieved, a lot more waiting in front. This journey has its own purpose, and yes, it'll never stop. Till I die. Till I die.

Learning is not easy. But it depends on how we view it. Sometimes, the bitter it gets, the stronger we bite back. We can always fail, but we must always learn. It's not easy to deal with failure, but it's a lot more harder to fall at the same spot twice. So, when we failed, no matter how hard we fell, just stand up, bounce back, fly higher. That's it. The only way you can revenge to Failure ;)

2012 is approaching. And I bet, it'll be as fast as 2011. Time's running, no, it's sprinting! I might not have much time to blog, it's a serious business in 2012. I have to get myself on track, towards the goal, another goal, and a lot of goals! :) So wish me luck guys, the luckiest luck in the universe perhaps? ;)  

2011 has also been a rough year for me. Dealing with many kinds of stress, eg. breaking up, being ignored, being pressured, and wutsoever. But in the end of the day, I knew it made me stronger, and wiser. I have the power to choose, either happiness or the other way round. Being ignored was the most painful, yeah, you might notice that in my previous entries, it did ripped my heart. It did. But again, like I said, I have the choice. So why choose to not be happy? Why bother of the closed doors when many other doors are wide opened? And yes, why bother not being loved by someone that doesn't deserve to be loved? It's hard. Yes it's hard. But Life goes on, and it doesn't wait. Look forward and chase our dreams, for love, will come softly, along the way. I believe ;)

No matter how hard it hurts me back then, towards the end of this 2011, I am one proud kid, when Mom and Dad told me "You made us very proud of you" T____T and that, is indeed -- Total happiness of 2011 ;)